Painful Waiting!

After Getting married, my life was not as romantic as it should be in some sense. My husband had his Job in the U.S, and I had my studies here to continue. Therefore, it was impossible for us to stay together.

After marriage when he left, we had known each other only for 4 days. Our friendship was only 4 days old. That left me with not much emotions, only the realization that I am married now and I have a husband who lives very far from me. Since I was in the middle of my exams at the time of marriage, and I still had few papers left, I was praying to have some alone time. After my husband left, 5 days later I had to write two more papers. When I was coming home after the last exam, I suddenly had the realization that I am married now. I felt as if I was in some other world all this time, my mind was preoccupied with something else and I could not even realize that my whole world has changed now.

Anyway, even though my husband was far away from me, we talked to each other every day, no matter what the situation was. This routine continued for 3 complete years. I planned my routine according to his timings. Since the time gap between my place and the U.S was a lot, I had to be very calculative about the time, so that I will not miss my classes and he will not miss his work.

We got to know more each other on phone with every passing day. We would share every thing we had to during our conversation. We would laugh, cry, and feel happy do planning on the phone. We had the fixed time to call and nothing can come on the way. 10 minutes before he would call me I would be all prepared, as if I am going for some important job interview or on some important decision to make. Every one at my home knew that this is my time and no one would dare to disturb me at that moment. No one could engage the phone at that time. People knew the timing so they would set up their timing of use of phone when I was done talking to my husband.

Like this 8 months passed by. I never had the courage to ask him to come and meet me once. At that time, the Job market in the U.S was very scary, because of sudden downfall in software market. People were being fired everywhere. So I was very scared to even ask him when will come to see me again. Every day I would think and set appropriate words to ask him to come forever 3-4 days, but I could never do that. However, up there was someone feeling my pain and emotions. My husband won a round trip lottery ticket for two people. He told me about it and I was so elated. I knew that now he would definitely come to see me, but still I did not have the courage to ask him that when will he exactly come. Then one morning he called me and told me the date. My joy knew no bounds. I started counting days. I was like a free bird full of joys, like a peacock dancing with joy in the first shower of the rain.

Finally he came. I did not have words to talk to him when I first saw him .I felt as if he is a complete stranger to me. Even though I knew that, this is the person whom I was dying to see. It took us few minutes to open up. We were more used to each other on phone than, like this face-to-face. Butterflies were flying in my stomach, uncontrollable.

He stayed for 7 days, going back and forth to my house and his parents house which is in the same city. Finally, the day came when he had to leave again. My heart was sinking, thinking about the day he will leave. Because I did not know how long I will have to wait to get his single glimpses again. I did not ask him as when he will come again. He left and our old routine of talking on phone started with any interruption.